I feel people fall into three categories when it comes to New Year’s. 1. Those who are excited to leave this year behind and have a fresh start in the new. 2. Those who feel neither here nor there. They feel everything happens for a reason and that regardless of how this year went, it helped prepare them for the new. 3. Those who are anxious, sad, and possibly down right terrified to leave this year behind.
I quite possibly fit perfectly into the third group.
2013 has been a wonderful and horrible year all wrapped up in one. On New Years Eve 2012, I was anxious about entering 2013. As we sat in my glider, watching the ball drop on TV along with his sweet sleeping face, I knew there was the very real possibility that it would be Logan’s only New Year’s Celebration and we would not get to leave the year with him. Unfortunately, that became true. In the 4.5 months before that happened, many beautiful and wonderful memories were made.
Our favorites include:
Flying his first foam airplane then laughing when it crashed
The countless number of postcards sending love!!!
Our Logan garden stone ❤
Our final trip to Branson. It was one of the best trips we ever had with Logan
Brotherly love during those last days
After Logan passed, a new chapter in our lives began, whether we were ready or not. The first two weeks without him are a blur when looking back. I never knew you could literally feel nothing. We pushed forward and decided we wanted to keep our word to him in his last moments on earth. We promised we would keep fighting for him. And fight we have!
We started the Logan Ruth SMA Foundation!!! Currently we are the only foundation dedicated to finding a treatment/cure for SMA in Southwest Missouri.
Out of the foundation, many awesome things have happened!
– We hosted our 1st Annual Logan’s 5k for SMA
-Chick-fil-A graciously allowed us to have a Spirit Night to help raise funds
-Farmer’s Market graciously allowed us to have a booth for 2 Saturdays during August (SMA Awareness Month) to spread awareness
-We had a booth at the Women in Business Shopping Event to help spread awareness
-Our 1st Annual Shopping for a Cure was a huge success on Facebook
Altogether, we raised over $4,000, reached our goal of 200 books donated/sponosred for FSMA’s care packages, and printed 5,000 business cards and brochures to help spread awareness everywhere we go.
We have hope that 2014 will redeem the hell that has been 2013. Our rainbow baby will be due not too much longer from now. We are getting the books ready to send out to FSMA and planning the 2nd Annual Logan’s 5k for SMA. An amazing opportunity to speak about Logan and SMA is coming in a few weeks as well!
A huge thank you to everyone who supported us during our best and worst times. Those who donated to help pay medical bills, those who sent messages letting us know they were thinking of us, those who bought Logan shirts to help us spread awareness and those who donated their time, money, and/or energy to help make our events a success..thank you all so much. There truly are not enough words to express our appreciation.
While I am not ready to enter 2014 without our Logan (down right terrified is more like it), there is no choice but to keep moving forward. We miss Logan more than words can explain, but nothing can steal our precious memories of his beautiful smile. 2013 taught me more about life than I ever though I would learn. However, I believe 2014 will be full of more learning opportunities in hopefully in a more positive light. We will be supporting families who feel lost after diagnosis, spreading awareness to those who haven’t heard of SMA and a step closer to finding a treatment and cure!
In the New Year, we challenge you to seize everyday. Make a bucket list, even just a few things you would really like to accomplish in the next 365 days. Try and smile a bit more. Enjoy the air around you. Hug and love on your children, no matter how annoying they may be 🙂 These will be on my list too!
May you have a safe New Year’s Eve and a healthy, joyous, and prosperous New Year.